Here I am; day seven of the seven day blogging challenge. I did it, well, kind of. I did miss day 6 yesterday, but regardless, I’m still proud of my effort. In hindsight, I probably didn’t chose the best week for me to do this blogging challenge – I already had a lot going on in both my personal and uni life, so this was an extra expectation/source of stress I put on myself that I didn’t really need. But I made the commitment.
I seriously struggled on day 3, 4 and 5. I had spent all day at class and the library focussing on study, and it would get to around 10pm every night and I still had a blog post to write. I was exhausted. Those three nights I remember thinking “I don’t know if I can do this” (lmao dramatic much??). But I decided this blog was important to me, I care about it because I know it’s good for me to push myself and practice writing as much as possible. So those three nights where I really wanted to give up, I pushed myself to stay up to the wee hours of the morning and publish a post.
When I look at this in a larger context, it has taught me something really valuable. The career path I want to take, to be a writer, is not something that will just happen. Because being able to make a living from being a writer is not something easy to achieve, it’s definitely the kind of career you do for the love of it, not for the pay check. Getting published is hard work, being a successful writer is hard work, and I always worry that I’m not going to be good enough to get there. I’m just starting to realise that if I really truly want a chance at being successful in the field of writing, then future me is going to have to get on the grind, work hard, be self-motivated and put in long hours even when I don’t want to. Opportunities are not going to fall into my lap. Sometimes my efforts may feel futile and I will likely want to give up at times. But this week has taught me that if I want it enough I can do it.
“Every morning you have two choices: Continue to sleep with your dreams. Or wake up and chase them.”
Thank you to everyone (special shoutout to my flatmates and my mum) who stuck with me during this blogging challenge! I would not have the faith or courage to pursue my dreams without your support and encouragement.